Love Letter #19

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Dec. 2012

 

Hey There Steven,

 

You walk right along side me in spirit and in heart. I got the “love bug”. I got it bad. Every time I hear from you, it spreads & multiplies.

I absolutely loved your poem, Who I am. Wow! You nailed that one. When I read at the end that you were talking about your mind, holy crap! You are sensational! I’ve always loved the quote, “Your mind can be either your best friend or your worst enemy.” You presented that concept perfectly. Love it. Love you!

 

I love a man who sometimes cries when emotional. It intensifies the feelings. Tears are to remind us that emotions are real, pure, and experienced. Whether you cry or you witness someone else cry, you can sense their love, their pain, and/or their happiness. Don’t ever feel ashamed to cry, is how I feel.

 

I agree, I am in my own class. I  don’t want to be like anyone else. I want to be different, unique, and my own person. Growing up in such a large family kinda made me invisible. I didn’t like going to church on Sundays. I felt like I was being given my opinions, beliefs, and told that they were the only ones. Still, I’ve never felt comfortable sharing my opinions. Yes, I now question if there really is a God. It tears me apart inside. God and religion was part of my childhood. My home growing up was full of conversations about God and there were always church activities we attended. I have to say, it’s refreshing to hear your view on religion and God. Because right now in this stage of my life, I can’t take another person who’s all about  “God this” and “God that” and “God has a plan for you.” I don’t have to believe in a God in order to be an honest and loving person, do I?

 

You’ve been asking me to send you a video. I’m sorry babe. I am just not comfortable doing that right now. And what?! You want me to send you sexy naked pictures? I have insecurities about my body image, that’s for sure. I’ll think about it. I make no promises though. We’ve only known each other less than a month. One step at a time baby, please. I thought of the whole 4-part picture increment thing because you were probably used to getting “flirty” pics of slutty women. I did not want you to mistake me for being one of those types.

 

Have you ever heard of or read, “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz? Well, I love it. His book was helpful to me and I gained a lot from it. It’s full of great wisdom and powerful words for attaining personal freedom and true happiness. I actually just bought a 48-card deck of quotes from that book. I also have a few other inspirational quote decks. I love to randomly pick a card to focus on each day.

 

I love that you have Inspiration Rocks which you use to focus on positive words and to meditate while holding. That is unique and awesome.

 

I’m thinking of doing something very slowly to you. My hands wonder down your chest going down south further and further. My lips follow right behind my hands. I feel you. I taste you.

You say that we won’t be able to make love until about 2017. Well, I partially disagree. We will make love…just not in the flesh, but with our minds. Which will naturally add to the moments when we are finally together and able to hold one another all night. Oh how I long for that. Our touches will send electrifying shocks through our bodies. Even just your written words send tingles all through my body.

 

No longer are you alone or empty. I’ll never let you feel that way again. I too know what it’s like to be alone, empty, and lost. With you in my life and in my heart, I am so full of delight & love. I’m over-flowing with it actually.

 

I love you Steven. Know that I am right here with you at all times. Think of me, think of us. And know that I care so much for you. You will get to kiss me, you will make love to me. For I am completely yours.

 

With you in my world…I am lost no more. Thank you for finding me.

 

I love you!

 

Your Lady,
Suzie

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Author: Steven & Suzie Jennings

She was raised as a Mormon, and he is a convict serving 43 years in prison. This blog offers a glimpse into two vastly different worlds that somehow came crashing together. Join them on their journey through prison life & married life.

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