Day 9 In The Hole

Journal entry 12-5-08 at 8PM:

Where there’s a will there’s a way. I’m a very strong believer in that. My goal is to find a way to get released in June of 2025. I’d be 51 years and 11 months old. The only way to achieve this is to stay out of trouble and earn back all my goodtime. I’m also hoping the law will change in a way that will allow me to earn a little more goodtime.

Meanwhile, I will focus on accepting hardship as a pathway to peace. I will enjoy and appreciate all my blessings. Such as my family, friends, good health, and the fact that I will get out with plenty of life left.

No matter the situation, life is what we make of it. A strong mind can thrive and be positive through any situation. It’s all about choice. I have the power to choose my thoughts and how to respond to situations.

I have a vision of the man I want to become. That vision will dictate the choices I make from now on.

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As I reflect back to this 6 years later, I realize what a journey it’s been. For years I’ve had a strong desire to do what’s right. But if my mind is not 100% right, there’s no way my actions will be 100% right.

I see so many men conform to this prison environment. I used to be one of them. But now, through trials and tribulations, I realize that I am a creative power in my life. I have the power to create situations out of which circumstances evolve.

I remember sitting in that cold cell 24/7…thinking! Thinking of all the changes I need to make in my life.
With thought comes action. I have slowly evolved and progressed.

That “hole time” was a spiritual lesson for me. I believe these lessons can be found in any circumstance. As one circumstance fades into the next, I focus on applying past lessons to the present.

It feels good to defeat unwanted character flaws. It’s a constant challenge that takes great focus and mental fortitude.

For years I tried to improve my circumstances. I failed time and time again because I was unwilling to improve myself, my thoughts, and my character.

Now that I’m willing to fix my defects, I am experiencing much progress as I rapidly pass through a succession of vicissitudes.

To all my family and friends…I love you! I will continue to strive towards redemption. I will continue to be the best I can be.

Thank you for all your love & support.

MORAL: Do not fight against circumstances. Fight against flawed thinking. When your thinking improves, so will your circumstances.

Peace,
Steven Jennings

Author: Steven & Suzie Jennings

She was raised as a Mormon, and he is a convict serving 43 years in prison. This blog offers a glimpse into two vastly different worlds that somehow came crashing together. Join them on their journey through prison life & married life.

10 thoughts

  1. You have found the concept, that if you continue to so things the same way, you will get the same result. Good for you for taking your “hole” time to reflect on what you want the future to be.

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  2. Hi Steven. Thank you for sharing your story. I don’t know if you are interested in spirituality but there is this spiritual teacher which teachings you might find helpful. Lately she was sharing on YouTube that she is working closely with prisoners. Her name is Teal Swan (maybe you already know her). Anyway… all the best!

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  3. Thank you for sharing your experiences. It seems that instead of letting your circumstances continue to shape you, you have endured and outgrown them. I hope you continue to transcend circumstance and shape your own path. All the best.

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